happy new year

Thank you Seattle dears
for this loving visit i return from
and the memory of it i return to.
It will nourish me when i need it.
So i'm back aboard now,
to go dance on the horizon's edge
between reality and unreality.
On the outside i am exploring the Sea of Cortez,
on the inside i am exploring being alone.
Sensing a deep/simple/bedrock shift nearby
that i can't know and have to trust.
It may look like i'm trying to escape,
when it feels more like i am trying to integrate.
Past, present and future.
To evolve.
As Gary quoted,
"if it's not a mystery...
it's a misunderstanding."
I like that.
And "if it's not service, it's a waste of time."
But black and white statements, themselves,
serve only a little to illumine so much gray.
Am i "serving" from out here? Isolated?
A little maybe, but there's much more to offer.
I expect to be cruising for the next week or two,
finding a pace.
So until my next missive here...
You are in my heart, every beat,
lucky jon